a year ago i dreamed...

a year ago i dreamed
of kisses and hand-holding at any given number of shows
skinny jeans a black tank top
dinosaur jr t-shirt and diesels
black converse for two
i thought this was enough to mean that
you would be mine
i would be yours
i thought this was enough
to kill that restless, endless "get after it"
i thought i saw a road leading to you
i thought you left me naked in the middle of it
holding your favorite record
you smiling as you walked away and left me

irish bars in astoria
gin and tonics in scarred booths
my best friend's brother and i talk about emotions
"i don't have anything but good feelings now"
i steal his cigarettes and wipe my nose
girls bang on the bathroom door
the green bay packers are winning

the old men in the bodega on 28th ave and 41st look up
MUST BE 21 TO PLAY QUICK DRAW AND SITTING BEER
i give up and drink sweet wine in my underwear
if you don't cry just happened
you're my only home is happening
(crazy for you but) not that crazy will happen

i hope i fall asleep dreaming of michael jackson, diana ross, and nothing else.