instead i dreamed of being...

instead i dreamed of being pulled out of the bar
by my hair
by your girl
who has every right, of course

i slapped her onto the pavement
and wondered if this was how my friend felt
slamming into the screen door on wurts ave
his hands covered in blood
the cops circling that dive we all loved
its sale only confirms that the town's soul is changing

my bedside table is sticky with sweet wine
my best friend in los angeles is worried

instead i dreamed of a different you
trying to protect me from what you think i can't take
this glass heart has long since been replaced with album titles
let it be. separation sunday. broken social scene s/t.
the woods. 69 love songs (part 1). shine a light.
black candy.
some of these are you
some of these are the others i need to get through
no matter how much i reach out
it's not that i want to keep you
i can't keep anyone
anyone who tries to keep me will find hidden scraps of paper
and averted eyes
and missed phone calls
and have the feeling that i'm hiding something
i always need to keep it like a secret.