instead i dreamed of being pulled out of the bar
by my hair
by your girl
who has every right, of course
i slapped her onto the pavement
and wondered if this was how my friend felt
slamming into the screen door on wurts ave
his hands covered in blood
the cops circling that dive we all loved
its sale only confirms that the town's soul is changing
my bedside table is sticky with sweet wine
my best friend in los angeles is worried
instead i dreamed of a different you
trying to protect me from what you think i can't take
this glass heart has long since been replaced with album titles
let it be. separation sunday. broken social scene s/t.
the woods. 69 love songs (part 1). shine a light.
black candy.
some of these are you
some of these are the others i need to get through
no matter how much i reach out
it's not that i want to keep you
i can't keep anyone
anyone who tries to keep me will find hidden scraps of paper
and averted eyes
and missed phone calls
and have the feeling that i'm hiding something
i always need to keep it like a secret.
a year ago i dreamed
of kisses and hand-holding at any given number of shows
skinny jeans a black tank top
dinosaur jr t-shirt and diesels
black converse for two
i thought this was enough to mean that
you would be mine
i would be yours
i thought this was enough
to kill that restless, endless "get after it"
i thought i saw a road leading to you
i thought you left me naked in the middle of it
holding your favorite record
you smiling as you walked away and left me
irish bars in astoria
gin and tonics in scarred booths
my best friend's brother and i talk about emotions
"i don't have anything but good feelings now"
i steal his cigarettes and wipe my nose
girls bang on the bathroom door
the green bay packers are winning
the old men in the bodega on 28th ave and 41st look up
MUST BE 21 TO PLAY QUICK DRAW AND SITTING BEER
i give up and drink sweet wine in my underwear
if you don't cry just happened
you're my only home is happening
(crazy for you but) not that crazy will happen
i hope i fall asleep dreaming of michael jackson, diana ross, and nothing else.
